Current vs Future

Current:
I'm pretty worry if I make this post overdone, as I'm also afraid to write anything (bad particularly) in this cyberspace, about my employer.
I'm stuck! Seriously. I'm under-performing, I'm reluctant to work hard, I'm procrastinating job on hand, and I’m not Ke Xin back in uni time.
After a year working in the manufacturing line, I finally realized the fact that it's definitely challenging, dry, and exhausting.
My weakest point is people skill. I know my weakest point and I'm working on it. The point is I can't locate the motivation which drives me to grow and improve myself.
I hate to portray my weakness and my failure, but all the above mentioned made me think twice to stay in manufacturing.

Future:
Has been exploring what I can do for my future? I can't just sit back and dream to marry a rich man. And yeah, marrying rich man has become the biggest dream recently; but there isn't any action plan to make this dream realize though.
I have a dream, a dream that I abandoned due the fact that the dream is not very supportive by my parents; and the fact that the dream is pretty hard to achieve.
However, recent events made me relook at this option and refigure out ways to make this dream true. I'm ready to fly!