Recent events in my life - new role at work, new choice in career change, new companion in personal life, new financial burden, etc. All these events have prompted me to a thought for a short escape from all the things in my word, and leave everything behind for a while.
I read this book “Eat, Pray, Love” two years ago and recently this book was filmed into a movie starring Julia Roberts. I watched the movie few weeks ago and all of a sudden the thought of travelling alone emerged to be a plan. And yes I have decided to pay a visit to Bali – sightseeing, relaxing Balinese massage, enjoying the sun with my long abandoned bikini, watching sunset alone at the beach, work-less and stress-less for a couple of day. Hmmmmm…… Bali, wait for me!
Wednesday, January 12, 2011
Thursday, December 9, 2010
Teach me how to smile
She loves him, therefore she leaves him
He loves her, and so he let her go
They say separation is the will from an individual, and the coordination from two individuals
You used to say I make you smile
Honestly, you make me smile, too
As much as you smile at my smiling
And with you walking away from my life, and taking my smile away with you
I forgot how to smile, teach me how to smile
I thought I'm able to cope, but I failed tremendously
I thought I wouldn't have tears, but just the thought failed me almost instantaneously
I thought the love is not that deep, but the truth is often the toughest pain
Again, teach me how to smile, when the only thing I want to do is to cry
He loves her, and so he let her go
They say separation is the will from an individual, and the coordination from two individuals
You used to say I make you smile
Honestly, you make me smile, too
As much as you smile at my smiling
And with you walking away from my life, and taking my smile away with you
I forgot how to smile, teach me how to smile
I thought I'm able to cope, but I failed tremendously
I thought I wouldn't have tears, but just the thought failed me almost instantaneously
I thought the love is not that deep, but the truth is often the toughest pain
Again, teach me how to smile, when the only thing I want to do is to cry
Tuesday, October 19, 2010
2 become 0
4 years
It comes to an end, but we are still friends.
I love the way it ends, no matter how faith issues came by for past few weeks.
Love is still there, but he has transformed from a lover to a family member.
4 weeks
I told myself to do the right thing, and I did.
But things just went wrong, so wrong; and uncontrollable, so out of control.
I'm in deep guilt and grieve; it was me, all me.
It comes to an end, but we are still friends.
I love the way it ends, no matter how faith issues came by for past few weeks.
Love is still there, but he has transformed from a lover to a family member.
4 weeks
I told myself to do the right thing, and I did.
But things just went wrong, so wrong; and uncontrollable, so out of control.
I'm in deep guilt and grieve; it was me, all me.
Thursday, September 16, 2010
Piece of Crap
And yes, Serene Ting never thinks though her family name is ‘think’.
Just a little bit of self confession.
1) I take things too easily.
2) I procrastinate those damn things which do not interest me.
3) I’m lazy when it comes to thinking, i.e. I never use my brain.
4) I’m not a very loyal person, to everyone, everything.
5) I’m not a very responsible person.
6) I cry when I face problems.
7) I can’t handle stress.
8) I’m indecisive, all the time.
9) I have no sense of taste, in terms of everything.
10) I do not like to talk to people.
The great ambition to leave a legacy at my workplace is a total failure? And yes, I did it again! Oops
Just a little bit of self confession.
1) I take things too easily.
2) I procrastinate those damn things which do not interest me.
3) I’m lazy when it comes to thinking, i.e. I never use my brain.
4) I’m not a very loyal person, to everyone, everything.
5) I’m not a very responsible person.
6) I cry when I face problems.
7) I can’t handle stress.
8) I’m indecisive, all the time.
9) I have no sense of taste, in terms of everything.
10) I do not like to talk to people.
The great ambition to leave a legacy at my workplace is a total failure? And yes, I did it again! Oops
Sunday, September 5, 2010
Current vs Future
Current:
I'm pretty worry if I make this post overdone, as I'm also afraid to write anything (bad particularly) in this cyberspace, about my employer.
I'm stuck! Seriously. I'm under-performing, I'm reluctant to work hard, I'm procrastinating job on hand, and I’m not Ke Xin back in uni time.
After a year working in the manufacturing line, I finally realized the fact that it's definitely challenging, dry, and exhausting.
My weakest point is people skill. I know my weakest point and I'm working on it. The point is I can't locate the motivation which drives me to grow and improve myself.
I hate to portray my weakness and my failure, but all the above mentioned made me think twice to stay in manufacturing.
Future:
Has been exploring what I can do for my future? I can't just sit back and dream to marry a rich man. And yeah, marrying rich man has become the biggest dream recently; but there isn't any action plan to make this dream realize though.
I have a dream, a dream that I abandoned due the fact that the dream is not very supportive by my parents; and the fact that the dream is pretty hard to achieve.
However, recent events made me relook at this option and refigure out ways to make this dream true. I'm ready to fly!
I'm pretty worry if I make this post overdone, as I'm also afraid to write anything (bad particularly) in this cyberspace, about my employer.
I'm stuck! Seriously. I'm under-performing, I'm reluctant to work hard, I'm procrastinating job on hand, and I’m not Ke Xin back in uni time.
After a year working in the manufacturing line, I finally realized the fact that it's definitely challenging, dry, and exhausting.
My weakest point is people skill. I know my weakest point and I'm working on it. The point is I can't locate the motivation which drives me to grow and improve myself.
I hate to portray my weakness and my failure, but all the above mentioned made me think twice to stay in manufacturing.
Future:
Has been exploring what I can do for my future? I can't just sit back and dream to marry a rich man. And yeah, marrying rich man has become the biggest dream recently; but there isn't any action plan to make this dream realize though.
I have a dream, a dream that I abandoned due the fact that the dream is not very supportive by my parents; and the fact that the dream is pretty hard to achieve.
However, recent events made me relook at this option and refigure out ways to make this dream true. I'm ready to fly!
Thursday, July 29, 2010
15 minutes
If you could spare me 15 minutes each day,
I believe the existing problems aren’t really problems anymore.
If you could bear with me 15 minutes each day,
I think I could feel you love and care better.
If you could talk to me 15 minutes each day,
I can assure that our relationship won’t have to be like now.
I just need 15 minutes, no interruption, no work, no drama, just pure talk.
Wondering whether it’s too demanding to request for 1% of your time every day?
I believe the existing problems aren’t really problems anymore.
If you could bear with me 15 minutes each day,
I think I could feel you love and care better.
If you could talk to me 15 minutes each day,
I can assure that our relationship won’t have to be like now.
I just need 15 minutes, no interruption, no work, no drama, just pure talk.
Wondering whether it’s too demanding to request for 1% of your time every day?
Sunday, July 25, 2010
Dear Diary
I feel old, and am trying to act young. The craziest thing I ever did recently is watching vampire series. Vampire stories? So teenage kinda story right? Yes. I'm watching it. And that's because of The Vampire Diaries; I revisit my long abandoned diary and am trying to re-activate it. Though I know this impulsion won't last long.
Maybe I should start writing in mandarin, which I wanted to when I started using blogspot. As it's a language which I can 'goreng' more, makes it looks more deep (as it's currently quite shallow). Well, let's see how.
Things change tremendously ever since X entered my life and left, as years passed, creativity seems to be a stranger to me, as compared to 4/5 years ago. I can say I’m pretty proud of the number of visitors few years back. sadly there isn't any proof cause I made the most correct decision ever to make that blog disappear, so that the current 'he' won't know all those his-stories.
I don’t know what the purpose of the post is, may be just for the sake of posting something. Or it’s just a sign of me re-abandoning my dear diary again. And yes, I need to stop fantasies over vampires and get down to earth.
Maybe I should start writing in mandarin, which I wanted to when I started using blogspot. As it's a language which I can 'goreng' more, makes it looks more deep (as it's currently quite shallow). Well, let's see how.
Things change tremendously ever since X entered my life and left, as years passed, creativity seems to be a stranger to me, as compared to 4/5 years ago. I can say I’m pretty proud of the number of visitors few years back. sadly there isn't any proof cause I made the most correct decision ever to make that blog disappear, so that the current 'he' won't know all those his-stories.
I don’t know what the purpose of the post is, may be just for the sake of posting something. Or it’s just a sign of me re-abandoning my dear diary again. And yes, I need to stop fantasies over vampires and get down to earth.
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