If only

If only I was more careful, I could have avoided that unpleasant incident.

If only I listened to a sincere friend’s advice, I would not have to spend 300 to 400 bucks.

If only I was not that stubborn, I would not have to blog about “IF ONLY”.

I cannot stop blaming myself, for being ridiculously idiot.

I cannot stop thinking about it, until crying machine starts its engine, and tears flow uncontrollably from those sepet eyes.

I cannot stop mourning over the ‘used to be flawless’ door, until I painted it with those awful scratches.

At that moment, my mind was blank, I was attacked by panic.

The only one I could reach out was him, and he did his part significantly.

Indeed, I was sailing smoothly all the while since I got my driving license.

This is the very time I was in such a situation, where I have to deal with this kind of incident.

Stop crying, face it, deal with it, S!

MT just wanna have fun

Working in Penang, far away from home sweet home is damn tough for a homely girl like me.
Luckily I have the double Vs, who are

• "Highly paid" MT in Kraft
• Not from Penang
• So called young and talented people
• Crazy in some means

We had our first movie outing last night.
Vicky and I wore "uniform" to watch movie, how coincident was that.
And VJ is trying to prove to us that he's the sarcastic king.

When we are hang out, it's none other than crapping, blowing water, criticizing each other, etc.
We watched The Losers instead of the 2 hit movies in the house - Iron Man and IP Man.

The movie was generally entertaining, best for stress release and work-aside moments.
I would rate 3 out of 5 for this.

We all love trainings

Updates: Just attended a workshop about building effectiveness last month, and yet, I still do not have the feeling of myself being more effective before attending the workshop. The workshop was actually based on Stephen Covey's famous book: The 7 Habits of Highly Effective People.
There are some stories between me and this book. Back in 10 years when I was still in my high school, the principal actually recommended this book to all the students during assembly. After I graduated from university, I got myself a copy of this book, and just managed to finish the foreword. What a shame! Then, after joining Kraft, I have the chance to get in touch with this book again by joining this workshop.

Training is not just about training, by the way. It's about comfortable hotel stay, buffet breakfast, chilling out with my colleagues, etc. The best part of it is, AWAY FROM OFFICE where people will get an auto generated email stating that I'm away from office and will be back on XXX.

Loving it and Hating it

When you have a crsuh on him ......
It's when you start to feel butterflies flying in your stomach.
It's when you find him so charming no matter what he does.
It's when you try so hard to catch his attention by doing stupid things.

And a crush will sooner or later fade away without us noticing ......
It's when you notice the butterfiles that used to be in the stomach suddenly disappear.
It's when you wonder why was he so attrative when you had that crush on him.
It's when you do not even want to interact with him by any means.

Loving it and hating it ...... It's indeed complicated!

New Year Resolutions

There it goes the last day of 2009

In less than 7 hours, it's the last year of this decade

Here it comes 2010

2010 is definitely a brand NEW start for everything

==> My new job which is going to be extremely challenging

==> A land which I'm not familiar with -- Penang

==> My "on order" new baby -- a new car

==> New handphone -- planning stage

Goals to be achieved for 2010

• Read 10 books in a year (started the first, and it seems ...)
• Read newspaper everyday (started to read local news, will start to read world news soon)
• Spend less time on watching nonsense drama/comedy (sometimes this is the way to stress relieve right?)
• Spend more time with JM and family (definitely!)
• Spend less (will try my best)
• Save more (with the hope to realize my 5 years prject)
• And last but not least ......
• Blog more frequently

I HATE YOU

I hate it when u disagree with me

I hate it when u never pick up my call after we had quarrels

I hate it when u never call me up when I'm mad at u

I hate it when u never know what I'm angry about

I hate it because I really care about it

I hate it because u never know how I feel and u never even care

I HATE YOU

Love Him, Love Him Not

Everything has finally turn out to be boring

It seems to me that the feeling is no longer there

Honestly I don't have faith in myself

I'm looking for some excitement

I'd been thinking a lot these few days after that lunch

That sudden crush dragged me to some place so deep inside

Thank God......

I know that he doesn't know about the existence of this blog

And he never bother to view my FB profile and get to encounter the link

And he never bother to change the status of mine to become "In a Relationship with XXX"

And he never know that this little things would have made a great difference